Too Much

Where is Peace?
From within!
Who's answer is that?

Idealists BS'ers with nothing better to do than scam those with mental unrest.

There is so much this life lacks, but yet I just keep 'seeing' the good that could be.
Why do SO many have to take?
Why is it "I" can not become one of those who think ONLY of themselves??
What is it in "me" that sets me apart from the rest....

Then I realize:

I am and do belong to GOD.
HE is in me.
I do have a purpose and that purpose should please none other than HIM.
Why am I "unpeaceful"?
Because I am flawed and sinful. Sorry to have to admit it, but I am made that way.
Then in my own I perfected the flaws to match this world.
How lost is lost?
How sad is that when I myself know the answer.
The more we know the truth the more we stay in denial.

Why do those in our lives, who may or may NOT care for us the way we want
still think it is perfectly fine to "use" us?
How is it that all the others around us tell us it is "OUR" fault they treat us that way because we "let" them.
Do any of them EVER Hear what they are saying?????
I think NOT.
When is it MY problem that others feel it is okay to abuse ME because they CAN???????????????????
Think about this!!!
Somehow "I" am responsible for EVERY ONES actions against me????
How????
If I treat you nice and you take advantage of it, it is my fault.
If I treat you poorly and take advantage of you, its my fault
If you lie to me and I believe you, its my fault.

How nice it would be to stay locked up in my own little world.
I am not my own
I have a Creator and Saviour that has Grace and Mercy for all.
I am to share His Love
In His Love of Me I am to find PEACE!
My Peace is in GOD
My Rest is in GOD

GOD help me to be more of who I am to be.
Fear is NOT from GOD.

My Heart hurts because I will not accept the truth
My Heart yearns because I will not See
My Soul searches because I will not Follow

I am never alone
I just become like everyone around me and will not pay attention to the ONE giving HIS ALL to me!